Tattoos, Luck and Addictions (spoilers all RotE books)

[londonlassie]

indeed. These beings also doubt that he himself knew the full why of it. Sort of like an action that he needs to do without comprehending why.

You see it a lot in modern times, too - people who are abused as children going on to have abusive relationships as adults, even though that's not what they want - they just don't know how to have it any other way. Alright, so Ivro was nowhere near a relationship for Kennit, but the contempt and aggression Ivro treated him with was probably similar to what he was used to growing up.



On another, vaguely correlating note, maybe Kennit was trying to get back some of the "routine" he was used to from his childhood every time something went wrong for him and he felt like everything had gone out of control. At least that way it was an environment he was accustomed to and knew how to deal with, even if it wasn't one that most people would think of as comforting. The same way that if you take an animal out of a research centre, the animal will choose to stay in its cage where it's cramped and uncomfortable because that's what it knows and that's where it feels its own warped version of safe, even though most - normal - animals would rightly feel more secure out in the open. It's probably not the best example but hopefully it'll put across what I'm thinking.

Also, Igrot was horrible to Kennit, but Kennit mentions that Igrot protected him from others. So it was probably only Igrot he had to worry about as a boy - the way Kennit made it sound, Igrot was probably possessive and most likely nobody else would've been allowed to lay a hand on Kennit. So while Igrot was vile behind closed doors, when the excrement hit the air conditioning, behind Igrot was probably the safest place for Kennit to stand. Igrot was the worst evil, but at least there was only one of him. Once he died, it probably freaked Kennit out just how much there was to worry about as an adult without Igrot to unwittingly shield him - all these problems he didn't know how to deal with, bombarding him all at once, when ever since he was...however old he was when Igrot kidnapped him (seven? eight?)...all he had to worry about was the one big problem.

So maybe in his adult life he hid behind Ivro the same way, even if he doesn't realise it.